Life as Rosey is a constant roller coaster ride, I anticipate the highs and have to remember the will be lows for me to get back to where I started (being me). I've learned to take the good, with the bad and I can't get mad when I don't get the thrill ride I expected. I have to let go of everything that has happened in the past or it will continue to block my blessings in the future. I have to take every day for what it is, not what I want it to be. Everything happens for a reason and there is a season for everything including winning & losing.
Just because I smile on social media doesn't mean I'm not crying in my personal life. If people only knew the mountains I'm conquering right now, they'd stop throwing pebbles at me. I distance myself from anyone and anything that isn't adding value to my life, I refuse to stick around for anything less than I deserve for long. I'm loved by many until it interferes with who they want me to be; understood by few and respected by less. I'm still me regardless of any opinion out there. I don't see why I have to explain myself to someone that doesn't listen before they talk: they want to be treated better than they treat me not realizing I treat people how they treat me.
I've fallen many times before I learned how to stand strong. I've cried many nights before I realized I needed to smile more- not because someone told me to but because I deserved much more. I've learned that I'd like to set the example I'd like to see: someone who lives their dreams and isn't phased by a rainy day, instead learns to use an umbrella. "I have a lot on my mind, I've got more in my face if I ain't going to get it that day is going to waste." Tomorrow doesn't come to everybody so I believe in doing as much as I possibly can in the 24 hours I was given today (carpe diem).
I'm thankful for anyone I've encountered along this journey that has made me a better me whether that was their intention or not. I look forward to fulfilling my purpose as a human taking in the tests as my testimony for those who want to give up on themselves. I have to remember that we're painting a bigger picture than what I can see now and I'm in charge of my canvas; not everyone will understand my gallery and enjoy the show.
