Tap Out Tuesday

One of my favorite Daytime Talk Shows is The Real. Not only do they have different opinions and backgrounds all around, but I can actually relate, laugh & cry with them. They have a segment in their show where they tap out things they each find annoying about our society; they keep it with general things but I'll go a little deeper.

This week I'll be tapping out people who swear they know my life more than I do. This isn't anything new to me but I must be fed up with it if I'm writing about it. 

Many have tried to do what I do and have failed for the simple fact that I AM ME. Everything happens for a reason, there's a reason why our Creator has made me go through what I have and the same for you too.
I've been judged and made fun of for the very things that make me, me. I'm human and have done the same thing to others. It's been proven in my life (quite often) that hurt people, hurt people. Before I go on, if I have genuinely hurt your feelings in the past I apologize.

So, you and your friend decide to go to the mall and you're driving; you have your favorite route and so does your friend. If your friend had a problem with the route you took to go to the same destination they could have stayed at home or drove, instead they trust your route and enjoy the ride. In a car there's only one drivers seat, on the road there's going to be potholes, stop signs, detours, green lights, freshly paved roads, and highways; but you still get to your destination.
I apply the same thing with life, no one can be a better you, than you. You can't control the things that happens you in life but you are in control of how you react and move on from it. Like Andre 3000 says, "you can plan a pretty picnic, but you can't predict the weather..." For those of you that think that you can be in the drivers seat of more than one car, please realize that is physically impossible- you may need to go back to the drawing board to continue in life. For every good thing that has happened in my life, something twice as bad happened shortly after but those who insist on me taking their way of life wouldn't know that I follow the path my Creator has for me, not yours. I'm not saying that I don't accept directions but what I am saying is that after a few experiences I had to learn that not everyone has the same intentions as I did.



I think the main purpose of the human life existing is to LIVE and to LEARN. The people who are always in the passenger seat to life won't know the adrenaline rush that comes with being the driver: they won't get it because they haven't lived it. Try to stay in your respected lane; not everyone has to drive at your speed. At this point, if it doesn't evolve me, it doesn't involve me. We're all out here working hard, trying to find our way, looking for togetherness: a beautiful melting pot.


What, or who would you like to Tap Out this Tuesday?

peace, love,
Rosey

Moment of Truth Monday: When I knew I had to change my life around.

I've been living with depression since my nickname of "Baby Rosa" suited me. I won't share the amount of ways I planned on ending my life, nor the amount of "good bye" letters I had planned to write out; I can share with you how happy I am to still be here to share my story.
Depression isn't a "mood" when I'm feeling down, it's not something I chose nor is it something I'm a victim to. My depression can range from mental breakdowns (doubt, fear, anger, etc) to physical pain. I never noticed how deep my depression was until I realized that I'm in charge of my own canvas (life).

My mental and physical health depend on my environment; I often take trips down memory lane where I realize what I was doing and who was around me that pushed me to change my surroundings and become me. Freshman year of college I was the poster child for unhealthy students: I never went to the gym, was always out partying and drinking, and didn't really care for my future. It all caught up to me when I almsot got kicked out of school for having bad grades. I gave in a broke down: I started to cry because I felt like I let a lot of people down ( mostly myself since I was the only one who knew). I knew that I had to change something before it changed me.
I still remember the day I came home and finally told my mom about what was about to happen. Before she could get a word in I gave her my word that I was going to change my habits and learn from my mistake.

My freshman year ended and I was back to getting good grades. I was happy to have made that comeback and to have finished my first year of college while being four hours away from everyone I know. I started to look back at the (epic) nights I had my freshman year and realized I gained weight- 20 pounds of drinking 3-4 nights a week, every week for 2 months straight and waking up to eat greasy unhealthy food every morning to get over my hangover. I was always bigger than my peers but this was too far. I was 18 years old wearing size 20 pants, xl shirts, 240 lbs. Time to change my habits again.
I've tried diets before that didn't work, played sports for many years and maintained (but never lost) my weight, what's there to do now? I had to want it like the next breath I took. I had to set REALISTIC goals and set myself up for success. One year I stood 50 lbs lighter feeling closer to the person I was created to be for the first time since I was Baby Rosa.

To me, every moment should be special to you to help you become a better you, even if it started out painful. I've been reminding myself and other that a dark past doesn't stop you from a bright future unless you do. Along this journey I've realized that I'm allowed to break down as many times as I need to, I just remember to build up stronger. Also, if it come easy it won't be worth it.

What was your moment of truth that you needed to change something on this beautiful Monday?

peace, love,
Rosey