The reason I'm here is because I didn't ever give up. I've certainly gotten confused and lost along this journey but thats the beauty of it. No one goes to an amusement park that has the same exact ride throughout the park. Some people can take the thrill more than others and that's what makes us all special.
For me to be writing this post for you all is nothing short of a blessing. No other day is promised, and I truly appreciate anyone that makes the time to get to know me better. Times have changed and I love the young woman I've grown into, so I'm going to share more about me.
Lately, A LOT of people who have known me for years have been showing MAD love to me and it is a great feeling when people recieve the message you're sending. They see the vision and want me to keep going. I've spent years in toxic situations with people who were focused on everything I'm not- which made me everything I am. The love always comes with hate but after I push that to the side I start to think about how I got here-what changed me to become someone people look up to?
I finally broke down and cried for a deep wound I didn't know I had covered. When my family moved to the town we live in now, it was completely different for me to have to introduce myself to strangers and get along with them. I grew up with my family members close to me and had close friends from my neighborhood. If I wasn't with my family, I was with them and "starting fresh" wasn't something I was used to. Being the introvert I am, I had a hard time mingling with people (and still do); I became friends with a great person in the sixth grade. She was my first friend in this town but overtime I didn't make the time to keep our friendship. When she died my Freshman year of high school I felt so bad that I didn't stick up for her enough, didn't see how she's doing, and barely even made the effort to say hi. I realized lately how deep of a depression that put me into, and why my heart was so cold with relationships. I still smile at the good times we had but her death had me think about my life; It pushed me into searching for my true Self and my purpose in this world.
The lady at the food court wants you to try her food but it's not until you have the whole meal that you both are satisfied. I no longer "try" to do much: I don't try to spread good vibes to do it, I don't try to be a good friend to genuinely be a good friend, etc.. Closed minds don't get fed and I'm working on opening my mind to trying somethings for the first time because the best things that have ever happened to me happened when I stepped out of my comfort zone. I know the Universal Law will always get me what I give; anything that I'm not working to keep I'm asking to lose.
I don't get to see my favorite people as often as I'd like to and I'm still working on my time management skills but my favorite people know how hard I've been working on being a better me. Timing is everything and things have to change in order to get somewhere in life. "If you want to go fast, go alone, if you want to go far, go together."
Crossing paths with people is no coincidence.
"I heard em say nothings ever promised tomorrow, today... people in your life are seasons and anything that happens is for a reason." - Kanye
Spread love, its the Rosey way.
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